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Had this tea on Easter. It was a really depressing weekend, and it was really really hard to sit around the table with my cousins and younger bro bragging about how much they work and how well they are doing in school and talk about all their grand plans in life.
It wouldn’t be as hard if I still was able to consistently be able to work because then at least I’d have one thing going for me. But I barely have that anymore…So I was feeling super depressed. Also things happened on Saturday that just added to it..
Sucks to listen to people talk about all the great things they get to do in life and remember that you have no life pretty much and you don’t even have the potential to do those kinds of things anymore…
In the middle of the day I finally decided that I should try to drink tea because they always say tea makes everything better.
So I brewed up this one.
The first time I had it it tasted like a lot more butterscotch and honey. But this time I mainly just tasted the hazelnut and mocha in it. Which was fine, but not exactly what I had hoped for. Still good though!
And it cheered me up some! (: Drinking this tea was seriously the best part of my entire Easter. Tea really does make everything better! :D
Flavors: Coffee, Hazelnut, Mocha
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Be happy with who you are and what you have. Let no one take your happiness away. There are always bad days but if we look hard enough we can still see the good others miss. :)
Even though every day is pretty much miserable, I am quite content with my life. And even on the really bad days, it’s not too hard to find some good in them. But it’s still tough to constantly be reminded of all the things you can’t do. And this is why I need to be around adults that are over wanting to do everything in the world. xD
Just do like I did years ago, just set your pace you are comfortable with. You will be able to do things just in time. I had a surgery years ago that put me down a couple of years. It is hard but you have the “inner” strength and you will overcome. I just had to keep thinking about the mustard seed parable. Small but the potential was there. :)
P.S. I am glad you can still enjoy your tea! I like your notes so keep on a drinking!
Awwww, I’m sorry to hear that you are down. I have had periods of time where it was hard to be around and be happy for those who were succeeding in areas of life that I had recently failed in. For me, avoiding those family get togethers where I felt like a failure and taking time to heal on my own terms was my lifeline back to feeling normal. I don’t know your circumstances, but I hope you find your lifeline and path back to feeling better soon!
I’m pretty much in this situation too, Ost.
Who you are is not where you work. Nor is it where we went on vacation or how successful and admirable my adult children are. (So there, Facebook!) I think all of us fall prey to that mindset from time to time, though. Glad we’re in the company of fellow Steepsters who have learned to count everyday blessings like cups of good tea!
I never wanted to be rich and famous. OK, I’m lying a little, but what I really always wanted was to be invisible. What I mean is I just wanted to blend in and be normal. I used to hate holidays for much the same reasons you mention. As the years have passed I have slowly just learned to run my own race. My joy does not come from my circumstances. It comes from a deeper, more meaningful, place. Sometimes the load I am carrying gets too heavy and I momentarily get overwhelmed. I do not believe we walk alone. When I am in a dark place I may cry out but then I hand my burden over and let it go. Knowing, what I now know makes it easier to be able to rejoice in the good things happening to those around me.
Be happy with who you are and what you have. Let no one take your happiness away. There are always bad days but if we look hard enough we can still see the good others miss. :)
Even though every day is pretty much miserable, I am quite content with my life. And even on the really bad days, it’s not too hard to find some good in them. But it’s still tough to constantly be reminded of all the things you can’t do. And this is why I need to be around adults that are over wanting to do everything in the world. xD
Just do like I did years ago, just set your pace you are comfortable with. You will be able to do things just in time. I had a surgery years ago that put me down a couple of years. It is hard but you have the “inner” strength and you will overcome. I just had to keep thinking about the mustard seed parable. Small but the potential was there. :)
P.S. I am glad you can still enjoy your tea! I like your notes so keep on a drinking!
Awwww, I’m sorry to hear that you are down. I have had periods of time where it was hard to be around and be happy for those who were succeeding in areas of life that I had recently failed in. For me, avoiding those family get togethers where I felt like a failure and taking time to heal on my own terms was my lifeline back to feeling normal. I don’t know your circumstances, but I hope you find your lifeline and path back to feeling better soon!
I’m pretty much in this situation too, Ost.
Who you are is not where you work. Nor is it where we went on vacation or how successful and admirable my adult children are. (So there, Facebook!) I think all of us fall prey to that mindset from time to time, though. Glad we’re in the company of fellow Steepsters who have learned to count everyday blessings like cups of good tea!
I never wanted to be rich and famous. OK, I’m lying a little, but what I really always wanted was to be invisible. What I mean is I just wanted to blend in and be normal. I used to hate holidays for much the same reasons you mention. As the years have passed I have slowly just learned to run my own race. My joy does not come from my circumstances. It comes from a deeper, more meaningful, place. Sometimes the load I am carrying gets too heavy and I momentarily get overwhelmed. I do not believe we walk alone. When I am in a dark place I may cry out but then I hand my burden over and let it go. Knowing, what I now know makes it easier to be able to rejoice in the good things happening to those around me.