Ugh. had one of those nights where I slept fitfully and then finally woke up for good at around 4:30. It wasn’t all that bad though—I just read and entertained myself until it was time to get ready for work. Lately, I’ve been feeling randomly nauseated, and so my tea preferences have kind of been all over the place. This morning, I wanted a tea that was reliable but not too nausea-inducing, and somehow this fit the bill perfectly. Thick creamy vanilla mouth feel with a hint of bergamot, just the way I like it.

In other news, I’ve been feeling kind of hopeless about my career prospects lately, although nothing substantive has actually changed to bring on this current bout of anxiety. I just keep on thinking I wasted my time getting a stupid degree, and that I didn’t pursue what I should have pursued, even though I distinctly remember choosing this option at the time over the other one for very specific reasons. Still though. I just hate the thought of having to job hunt once this is over, because looking for jobs is among the worst first world problems ever.

That’s enough from me about that. Now to get to work and enjoy my tea.

Sil

i’m with you on the job front!

keychange

it’s really annoying eh?

Courtney

The randomly nauseated thing happens to me all the time, and I totally get feeling anxious. I have that same feeling even though I’m only halfway through the schooling I hope to do for what I want as a career. I hope things start looking up for you though. :)

keychange

Thanks, and back at you. It’ll all eventually work out, I’m fairly certain, but it isn’t a matter of just coasting along and waiting for stuff to just fall into your lap, you know? and your desires often don’t correlate with market demands, and you’re a young idiot and beggars can’t be choosers and all that sort of thing (not that you’re an idiot, I mean the generic young us LOL). And hate, hate, hate random stupid nausea. It just comes and goes and it doesn’t really seem worth fretting about to doctors and such.

Courtney

Haha! I read “you’re a young idiot” and thought: Hm. Alright, I’ll just roll with it. :P Ah yes, I’m always reminded of those things. I want to do research in marine science, so my desires will never correlate with market demands. Often people can’t fully comprehend why I want to do something that won’t make money. I’m lucky I absolutely love what I’m doing so I’m hoping the hard work will pay off, even if it doesn’t “pay off”. HAH. Also, I’m so accustomed to the nausea now I just roll with it. I’ve come to realize that’s how my body manifests sickness and stress.

keychange

Hmmm, that’s interesting. I don’t tend to get “sick sick” very often, but almost always have something minor going wrong i.e.the nausea, random pain that comes and goes, unexplained weakness, etc. And yes, there’s a lot of pressure to pursue degrees that will “open many doors” and “give you the most options”, but little to no pressure to pursue what will likely bring you the most peace. That being said, we won’t be feeling very peaceful if we can’t afford food (and tea!), so I’m not discounting that type of pressure entirely, but it also doesn’t have to be an either/or concept.

keychange

Haha I wrote the thing about being a young idiot and then was like wait, she’s going to think I’m talking about her specifically haha!!

Courtney

Haha, oh yes. I almost never get “sick sick” either. But I always have the minor things as well – nausea is the main one, and random pains are the follow up. I completely agree about pressure haha! Yes, I still plan to be able to live (and of course order tea). I definitely don’t like the either/or concept. I’ve been in school a long time and switched my degree a handful of times now because of that pressure (commerce – biology – nursing – biology/psychology). In the end, it’s me who has to be happy with what I’ve done, so I switched back to my true love and stuck with it. Haha I love how this went from anxious to me explaining my life. :P

keychange

Haha it’s ok. I love it when we all get off-topic in our comments. It’s hard, because we’re rarely encouraged to choose an option where, when we put our heads down at night, we can actually say we’re really happy with what we did that day. As for the anxiety, it really comes and goes, don’t you think? Like there will be weeks, months even, when I’m just like “it’ll be ok, it really will be.” and then there’ll be times when I experience crippling anxiety and am all like “holy crap, what the hell am I even doing?”. Having debt doesn’t help, although surprisingly it doesn’t keep me up at night. I figure that if I can pay it off steadily, that’s about the best I can do and so be it. And if all else fails, we’ll just go into the tea business haha. It also helps to remember that choosing to follow our passion doesn’t mean you’ll be in a constant state of bliss, so maybe the anxiety is just par for the course in any career—I mean, we all have to start somewhere, and starting sucks.

Courtney

Yes! I have far worse times than other with anxiety. I have a semi-permanent “thin layer” all the time, just due to my personality, but I have days on end where I question everything and wonder if I should’ve gone a different route. My facebook is filled with people getting married and having their first, second, or even third kid, and I’m here getting ready to apply to grad schools. It doesn’t help when J’s family is always asking when we’re having kids. “Uhhh, we aren’t?”. :P Sometimes those things trigger that crippling anxiety and make me wonder if I what I’m doing is right, even though I know it is. Debt doesn’t bother me either. It’s those “deep” life questions that keep me up at night. I haven’t been sleeping well for weeks actually.

Sami Kelsh

MAN. Career crap blows so hard. I have a fairly useless humanities degree and made the stupid decision to attempt a mid-career change, which has essentially rendered me unemployable. I’m lucky when I can get an 8-hour temporary retail contract. I’m haemorrhaging money. People keep telling me something will come along and it will get better, but it kind of sounds like useless platitudes when I’ve been at it for over 10 months and I can’t even get an interview. Employers are wary of taking risks on untested talent, even for entry-level positions at the moment, it seems. I feel like I’m just destined to be lost in the shuffle and never actually get to do anything meaningful. Or even be an office administrator. I’d be a great office administrator. Do you know how hard it is to get an interview as an office administrator? Now I’m just ranting, sorry. Let’s just go into the tea business. That’s something we’re good at!

Christina

I hear you all on the job front. I’m looking for work right now and have had some interviews, and I’ve got a savings cushion….but you still feel this sense of “I have to do something now” because you’re worried that if you don’t do anything, it will be harder later. Fingers crossed that things turn out okay for all of us.

Cheri

I hear you on both the poor sleep (I awake for almost 2 hours in the night with my asthma. It took me almost an hour to realize that it was my asthma and that I needed to use my inhaler.) and on the career. Lately, I just haven’t been very happy with my job and how things are. :( At least the tea was perfect this morning!

OMGsrsly

Oh, job hunting. Is it bad that I’ve been perusing job ads while at work? Any wait I have that’s not long enough to do anything productive, and I’m looking at other jobs. Sadly it’s mostly a money factor. I haven’t worked up the nerve to apply for anything yet. Maybe I should.

Fjellrev

I’m really sorry about the job situation. But maybe whatever degree you did get could be applied to different kinds of jobs? Many are more flexible than what people think, and in many cases, employers don’t really care about what you have a degree in, just that you in fact have one. I’m floating in some weird academic purgatory right now myself, hardly waiting to graduate and get away from academia, yet terrified of what I should do and which path I should take. But I’m trying to tell myself what I’m telling you, that degrees are flexible and try not to look at it as some terminal life choice.

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Sil

i’m with you on the job front!

keychange

it’s really annoying eh?

Courtney

The randomly nauseated thing happens to me all the time, and I totally get feeling anxious. I have that same feeling even though I’m only halfway through the schooling I hope to do for what I want as a career. I hope things start looking up for you though. :)

keychange

Thanks, and back at you. It’ll all eventually work out, I’m fairly certain, but it isn’t a matter of just coasting along and waiting for stuff to just fall into your lap, you know? and your desires often don’t correlate with market demands, and you’re a young idiot and beggars can’t be choosers and all that sort of thing (not that you’re an idiot, I mean the generic young us LOL). And hate, hate, hate random stupid nausea. It just comes and goes and it doesn’t really seem worth fretting about to doctors and such.

Courtney

Haha! I read “you’re a young idiot” and thought: Hm. Alright, I’ll just roll with it. :P Ah yes, I’m always reminded of those things. I want to do research in marine science, so my desires will never correlate with market demands. Often people can’t fully comprehend why I want to do something that won’t make money. I’m lucky I absolutely love what I’m doing so I’m hoping the hard work will pay off, even if it doesn’t “pay off”. HAH. Also, I’m so accustomed to the nausea now I just roll with it. I’ve come to realize that’s how my body manifests sickness and stress.

keychange

Hmmm, that’s interesting. I don’t tend to get “sick sick” very often, but almost always have something minor going wrong i.e.the nausea, random pain that comes and goes, unexplained weakness, etc. And yes, there’s a lot of pressure to pursue degrees that will “open many doors” and “give you the most options”, but little to no pressure to pursue what will likely bring you the most peace. That being said, we won’t be feeling very peaceful if we can’t afford food (and tea!), so I’m not discounting that type of pressure entirely, but it also doesn’t have to be an either/or concept.

keychange

Haha I wrote the thing about being a young idiot and then was like wait, she’s going to think I’m talking about her specifically haha!!

Courtney

Haha, oh yes. I almost never get “sick sick” either. But I always have the minor things as well – nausea is the main one, and random pains are the follow up. I completely agree about pressure haha! Yes, I still plan to be able to live (and of course order tea). I definitely don’t like the either/or concept. I’ve been in school a long time and switched my degree a handful of times now because of that pressure (commerce – biology – nursing – biology/psychology). In the end, it’s me who has to be happy with what I’ve done, so I switched back to my true love and stuck with it. Haha I love how this went from anxious to me explaining my life. :P

keychange

Haha it’s ok. I love it when we all get off-topic in our comments. It’s hard, because we’re rarely encouraged to choose an option where, when we put our heads down at night, we can actually say we’re really happy with what we did that day. As for the anxiety, it really comes and goes, don’t you think? Like there will be weeks, months even, when I’m just like “it’ll be ok, it really will be.” and then there’ll be times when I experience crippling anxiety and am all like “holy crap, what the hell am I even doing?”. Having debt doesn’t help, although surprisingly it doesn’t keep me up at night. I figure that if I can pay it off steadily, that’s about the best I can do and so be it. And if all else fails, we’ll just go into the tea business haha. It also helps to remember that choosing to follow our passion doesn’t mean you’ll be in a constant state of bliss, so maybe the anxiety is just par for the course in any career—I mean, we all have to start somewhere, and starting sucks.

Courtney

Yes! I have far worse times than other with anxiety. I have a semi-permanent “thin layer” all the time, just due to my personality, but I have days on end where I question everything and wonder if I should’ve gone a different route. My facebook is filled with people getting married and having their first, second, or even third kid, and I’m here getting ready to apply to grad schools. It doesn’t help when J’s family is always asking when we’re having kids. “Uhhh, we aren’t?”. :P Sometimes those things trigger that crippling anxiety and make me wonder if I what I’m doing is right, even though I know it is. Debt doesn’t bother me either. It’s those “deep” life questions that keep me up at night. I haven’t been sleeping well for weeks actually.

Sami Kelsh

MAN. Career crap blows so hard. I have a fairly useless humanities degree and made the stupid decision to attempt a mid-career change, which has essentially rendered me unemployable. I’m lucky when I can get an 8-hour temporary retail contract. I’m haemorrhaging money. People keep telling me something will come along and it will get better, but it kind of sounds like useless platitudes when I’ve been at it for over 10 months and I can’t even get an interview. Employers are wary of taking risks on untested talent, even for entry-level positions at the moment, it seems. I feel like I’m just destined to be lost in the shuffle and never actually get to do anything meaningful. Or even be an office administrator. I’d be a great office administrator. Do you know how hard it is to get an interview as an office administrator? Now I’m just ranting, sorry. Let’s just go into the tea business. That’s something we’re good at!

Christina

I hear you all on the job front. I’m looking for work right now and have had some interviews, and I’ve got a savings cushion….but you still feel this sense of “I have to do something now” because you’re worried that if you don’t do anything, it will be harder later. Fingers crossed that things turn out okay for all of us.

Cheri

I hear you on both the poor sleep (I awake for almost 2 hours in the night with my asthma. It took me almost an hour to realize that it was my asthma and that I needed to use my inhaler.) and on the career. Lately, I just haven’t been very happy with my job and how things are. :( At least the tea was perfect this morning!

OMGsrsly

Oh, job hunting. Is it bad that I’ve been perusing job ads while at work? Any wait I have that’s not long enough to do anything productive, and I’m looking at other jobs. Sadly it’s mostly a money factor. I haven’t worked up the nerve to apply for anything yet. Maybe I should.

Fjellrev

I’m really sorry about the job situation. But maybe whatever degree you did get could be applied to different kinds of jobs? Many are more flexible than what people think, and in many cases, employers don’t really care about what you have a degree in, just that you in fact have one. I’m floating in some weird academic purgatory right now myself, hardly waiting to graduate and get away from academia, yet terrified of what I should do and which path I should take. But I’m trying to tell myself what I’m telling you, that degrees are flexible and try not to look at it as some terminal life choice.

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Well, it’s been slightly over six months since I’ve joined steepster, and I can’t say enough wonderful things about this community. Like many of you, I began my foray into the world of loose-leaf tea by discovering David’s Tea, and although I’ve ventured out and have discovered many other companies that I’m extremely fond of, there are still many of David’s teas that I hold close to my heart and I will always appreciate it as a starting point for my journey.

As for my preferences, I tend to prefer bold black tea, flavoured and unflavoured alike, and I almost always take my blacks with cream and sugar. This isn’t to say that I don’t enjoy a good, flavoured white though, and I’m slowly making my way through the incredibly confusing world of oolongs and greens. I am also not a fan of rooibos, although I am starting to suspect green rooibos may be ok, but you know how it is: when you’ve decided you detest a certain ingredient, you’ll notice it everywhere—perhaps even where it doesn’t exist!

Things other than tea: I’m engaged to be married to my best friend, and feel like the richest woman on the planet because of it. I am also a veracious reader, and I also happen to have an obsession with fragrances, and have amassed quite a collection, although it pales in comparison to some collections out there! As a result of this obsession, I also follow several fragrance blogs, and am always up for a chat about scent. I’m also almost completely blind, and this does indeed mean that I come complete with a guide dog, who unlike me, hales from the sunny California campus of Guide dogs for the Blind. I think I’ve rambled on long enough, but if there’s anything you’d like to know or if you just feel like chatting to someone, please don’t hesitate to send me a message.

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