Ugh. I made what I think is a regrettable decision, as in I sent an email to a friend whom I’d wronged several years ago. I was hoping to apologize, the apology of the no strings attached variety i.e. I made it clear that they weren’t at all obligated to respond or acknowledge receipt or anything, but that I wanted them to know that the fact that I’d hurt them still saddens and haunts me, but that there is obviously no justification. Now I feel foolish and wish I hadn’t reached out like that. Oh well, what’s done is done.
All this to say that when I need to be gentle on myself, I usually reach for a floral tea. Typically this would be the rose violet calendula, but I’m hording that, so this one had to be it. And I liked it better than I did previously, although i think that’s entirely because I was sort of in the mood for it. I still don’t think I’ll be reordering this one, but I don’t think I’ll feel overly burdened to eventually finish the tin. Besides, I’m happy to share. It still had that slightly throat-scratching quality to it—perhaps that’s a soapiness? or maybe it’s because it’s strictly a rose tea and not a floral combination—but something about it just feels a bit too…cloying? i don’t even know. There isn’t a word (that I can think of) to describe how it feels. Maybe it’ll come eventually.
But whatever. I have an awesome jar with infuser!!
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I had similar thoughts to this tea when I had it a year ago. First taste – loved it. Second and then on, not so much. It’s unfortunate but that’s what swaps are for!
Don’t feel foolish! Feel better for having said what you needed to say :)
That’s complicated… I think that you probably did the right thing – you will feel better knowing that you said what you wanted to. And the other person may feel better know your thoughts too, once they’ve had time to digest them.
Agree. It’s never wrong to apologize. It’s up to the other person what they do with it. I remember this rose—very rosy indeed, and though I love rose I thought it was something I could drink only occasionally.
Don’t feel foolish. I was once on the receiving end of a similar email and personally I really appreciated the person being brave enough to reach out. Obviously it is not an easy thing to do so I think it is something to be admired that you were strong enough to do it.
I hope they view it in the sincere spirit in which I meant it, and not as my pestering them (although the last time we spoke was like seven years ago). Anyway, I think I’d always rather apologize than not. It gets tricky, though, when your conscience is all wrapped up in whether or not they’ll forgive you. Because unfortunately for you, your own healing can’t really depend on that, and they are fully within their rights to not forgive (omg I’m making it sound as though I murdered someone…I didn’t!).
And yeah, this tea. I like it less each time, too. But yup, the good old swaperoo always comes to the rescue.
VariaTea, I, too, have been on the receiving end, and likewise appreciated it. So much scarier when the shoe is on the other foot though! Ah well, you’re all right—it’s still better to apologize. after that, it isn’t up to you anymore.
I have done this before too keychange. It was also years between speaking, and it was something that haunted me as well. It’s now been years since I sent the apology and I can honestly say that even though we aren’t friends again, I feel as though my conscience is somewhat clearer for it.
I’m so glad, Courtney. Although this thing happened about seven or eight years ago, it still haunts me, and I sent the email before I even really had time to talk myself out of it. I think I just need to be ok with never hearing back. I am definitely relieved to know I’m not the only one with this particular issue.
I had similar thoughts to this tea when I had it a year ago. First taste – loved it. Second and then on, not so much. It’s unfortunate but that’s what swaps are for!
Don’t feel foolish! Feel better for having said what you needed to say :)
That’s complicated… I think that you probably did the right thing – you will feel better knowing that you said what you wanted to. And the other person may feel better know your thoughts too, once they’ve had time to digest them.
Agree. It’s never wrong to apologize. It’s up to the other person what they do with it. I remember this rose—very rosy indeed, and though I love rose I thought it was something I could drink only occasionally.
Don’t feel foolish. I was once on the receiving end of a similar email and personally I really appreciated the person being brave enough to reach out. Obviously it is not an easy thing to do so I think it is something to be admired that you were strong enough to do it.
I hope they view it in the sincere spirit in which I meant it, and not as my pestering them (although the last time we spoke was like seven years ago). Anyway, I think I’d always rather apologize than not. It gets tricky, though, when your conscience is all wrapped up in whether or not they’ll forgive you. Because unfortunately for you, your own healing can’t really depend on that, and they are fully within their rights to not forgive (omg I’m making it sound as though I murdered someone…I didn’t!).
And yeah, this tea. I like it less each time, too. But yup, the good old swaperoo always comes to the rescue.
VariaTea, I, too, have been on the receiving end, and likewise appreciated it. So much scarier when the shoe is on the other foot though! Ah well, you’re all right—it’s still better to apologize. after that, it isn’t up to you anymore.
I have done this before too keychange. It was also years between speaking, and it was something that haunted me as well. It’s now been years since I sent the apology and I can honestly say that even though we aren’t friends again, I feel as though my conscience is somewhat clearer for it.
I’m so glad, Courtney. Although this thing happened about seven or eight years ago, it still haunts me, and I sent the email before I even really had time to talk myself out of it. I think I just need to be ok with never hearing back. I am definitely relieved to know I’m not the only one with this particular issue.